I am trying to get the meaing of everything that happened this weekend, I am sure that a great deal of it will not be clear for a while.
What is clear, is that i was approaching this from too limited a perspective, Trying to pretend I was only interested in 1 aspect of pla, or 1 role is simply not being true to myself.
Its just a matter of making negotiation that much harder to do because there are so many places i can go. I still want more depth as a sub, although I might be an alpha, not sure though....
Real life is coming in fast now, will not have too much time to think about this for a bit, I do, however feel more confident than before,
Have to make a few decsions on direction now . Will take off for Montreal next week to work and relax, and process some more. Also see some of the old friends who have been pushed aside by this process. They remain important